How to Get Through A Break-Up:

1.  Keep your composure when he breaks the news to you.  Don't let him see you cry.  The last thing you need is for him to know how much he gets to you.
2. Cry.  Cry.  Cry.  Cry as much as your heart desires.
3.  Listen to music.  Make a playlist of songs that you can relate to.
4.  Go shopping.  Buy whatever you want, and think about how gorgeous you are going to look wearing your new clothes.  And the look on his face? priceless.
5.  Hang out with your friends.  You aren't going to feel like doing anything, but just getting your mind off of it makes a big difference.
6.  Write quotes, poetry, etc.  It really helps to express yourself.
7.  If you keep a journal, write in that too.  Once again, just getting the emotions out on paper helps.
8.  Watch t.v. or a movie.  Getting your mind off of it...
9.  Do something like getting a haircut.  For some reason this helped me.  My hair was really long before, and I got about six inches off and got my bangs cut.  I almost feel like a new person... different from the person who's heart he broke.  Doesn't make much sense, but for some reason it helped me a lot.
10.  At school, smile.   Be the girl that he fell in love with.  If you're miserable, he's only going to feel guilty and not regret his decision.  Smile and laugh, make him regret it.
11.  Cry some more.

Even though all of this helps, I'm not promising a miracle.  I still miss him and all that we were.  I still want him back.  But I'm getting used to the pain.

I didn't write this, but i found this quote and i can relate to it so much--

I've never understood the reasoning for someone to "move on" from a relationship. It's not like you are really going to "move on", you are just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that person every second of every minute of everyday until it finally becomes a routine and you don't notice it anymore. That is, until you see that person again, with someone who isn't you, and then you have to remind yourself again....

i'm really sorry guys.  i know i should have updated by now.. but this hasn't exactly been the best week of my life.  my boyfriend broke up with me on tuesday, and i feel awful.  he was my first "real" boyfriend, and i've never been through this before.  it just made me really mad because for the past two weeks he hadn't been calling me, but he would still talk to me like normal in school. then tuesday night when he finally told me, he acted like it was really hard for him and he said he was really sorry and that he still cared for me and that he didn't want this to change things between us.  that just made me furious.  i acted like i understood and said that i was glad he was being honest with me.  and then as soon as i got off the phone i just started sobbing :(

good news for you guys?  i've written a lot of quotes because of this.

i have some that i wrote a while ago.. happy quotes.  but i think i'll give you guys the ones i just wrote.

(1)
at first, you just wanna cry.  and you do.  and you can't stop.  you can't get him off your mind.  then you just want to forget him and move on with your life.  but you don't.  you cry some more.  then you just want to be done with crying.  but you still cry.  like crazy.  the pain never really goes away.

(2)
i cry myself to sleep.  it's become the background music in my life.

(3)
you know, if i had the chance to go back and do it all again, I would.  sure, i can't stop crying, and i don't feel like living anymore.  but that doesn't change the fact that those were the happiest three months of my life.  i don't care how badly this ended, i wouldn't give those months away for anything.

(4)
as i lay here drowning myself in tears, you're out there drowning yourself in laughter.  wow, i really did get the bad end of the breakup.

(5)
I'm always going to have feelings for you.  I just can't see my life without you.  honestly, it's killing me slowly.

(6)
after a while you'll realize the only cure to your broken heart is the one who broke it
(i'm not sure if that's original or not? maybe a rephrase of another quote)

(7)
I don't know how I'm going to go back to the way my life was before.  at least then I didn't know what i was missing out on.  but now?  I am haunted by memories of us.  things were perfect.  life without you is too bland and painful.

(8)
after you broke up with me, I decided to get a job... not just to get my mind off of you though.  how else was i going to pay for all of these kleenexes?

(9)
yeah, i used to have hobbies.  and occasionally some free time.  but lately, crying takes up all of my time.

(10)
who do i have? there's no one to hold my hands and keep them warm.  my hands have become just as cold as my heart.

(11)
you say you're sorry and that you still care about me.  but do you care that I don't want to live anymore?

(12)
everything was perfect.  we were untouchable.  but who cares, right?  apparently that's the type of love that's meant to be thrown away.

(13)
I want nothing more than him.  but that's the one thing i can't have.  maybe i'll just get out of here.  there's nothing left for me anyway.

(14)
I'm trying to hold on to something that's not even there.  I just need to let go.  sure, it'll hurt when i hit the ground.  but it can only hurt for so long, right? i mean, it'll eventually have to get better, won't it?

(15)
so much for all that we had.  forget all the promises.  forget all those lies.  if only i could.

(16)
i'm so tired of crying.  i wish i could forget.  forget it all.  i miss the old me.  the one who always smiled.  the one that could hardly find a reason to frown.  i miss her.


the song that perfectly describes me is Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson. 

please comment with your favorite number!  .. and any advice would be lovely too :)

i have spring break next week so hopefully there will be at least one update sometime soon.  sorry for not updating lately.  i started writing more quotes again though, so i should have plenty to share.